Stressed out SAHM

I am tired.

• I am tired of being questioned
• I am tired of "suggestions"
• I am tired of being thought of as "always complaining"
• I am tired of this statement "you don't know how lucky you are, yet you are always complaining"
• I am tired of other people trying to get me to do things their way
• I am tired of being thought of as lazy or doing things the wrong way
• I am tired of rushing all the time
• I am tired of being rushed all the time
• I am tired of being threatened when I voice out my unhappiness
• I am tired of not having any emotional support
• I am tired of being on my toes all the time
• I am tired of not doing things "right" whichever way I do it
• I am tired of not being able to please people whichever way I do it
• I am tired of having my self confidence eroded slowly but surely

Because I know....

• I am doing the very best that I can under the circumstances
• I am rushing as best that I can
• Voicing out unhappiness is not a complaint
• Taking time out for myself is not being lazy
• Taking care of myself is not being selfish
• At times putting myself first before the children is not wrong when I put them first 99% of the time
• Trying to slow down is not wasting time
• I know that I am already rushing and I don't need constant reminders to hurry up
• My way may not always be right but it is not entirely wrong either
• I need to be able to do things my "wrong" way and be appreciated for it instead of being criticised
• I need to be self confident in order to raise self confident children. I do not need to be put down frequently till my confidence is slowly eroded
• I know I am doing a good job even if others don't think so

Oh, I could go on and on but who will listen? No one will. They only think I am complaining. Nevermind, I shall be my own pity party and then I will pick myself up and carry on as usual with or without appreciation or thanks.

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