Missed Period, Negative Pregnancy Test

My period did not come this month. I have always been rather regularly but this month, it did not come. There was just a lot of discharge, either clear or white discharge but no period. I worried that I may be pregnant but a home pregnancy test showed a negative result.

My husband and I had always wanted a 3rd kid but we gave up after our age advanced and for health reasons too so we certainly had not planned it. However we did not use any birth control, not for years, probably due to the fact of our secret longing for a 3rd kid.

So when I thought that I could be pregnant, we had very mixed feelings. It was the wrong timing. Many things raced through my mind. Among them are the fact that if I were pregnant, I would deliver in December. That would mean I would have to miss my boy's first day at big school. I am 44. Our kids are 6 and 8. The age gap for another kid would be too wide. If I had a baby now, the baby would only be 10 when I am 54. What if due to my age, the baby had problems? It would stress up the whole family and not fair to the kids. I was on a diet and had lost 5 pounds, inching very slowly to my target weight. If I were pregnant, that would set me back by 2 years at least. Speaking of which, since I was worried that I might be pregnant, I stopped my diet and regained my 5 pounds easily, too easily.

All these things raced through my mind, but I was also secretly a little bit happy, hoping to have the 3rd kid we had always wanted. So when the pregnancy test kid said "Not pregnant", I stared at it in relief mixed with dismay. The pregnancy test kit is unlike those I used previously. It is a "digital" one. It flashes when taking the reading and you don't have to stare at lines to figure out whether you are pregnant. The results are given in words "pregnant" or "not pregnant". Interesting.

My period still had not come. So what to do now? A visit to the gynae is due naturally.

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